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Where do I begin?..........My first experience I'm guessing.
When I was 10 yrs. old, my cousin Doug and I decided to take a bag lunch one summer day, and walk up to a park in my small hometown. Rather than go the long way round and round up many paved hilly roads, we decided to take a short cut. (stupid kids!) this shortcut involved climbing up a rocky, steep wall that faced the main highway. It led straight up to the place where we would have our picnic lunch at the top of this mountain of rock outcroppings, to a nice flat rock at the top. The view was fabulous and you could see the whole river valley and town. I went first of course, being a year older, but no wiser than he.
Doug stayed behind 'til I was over half way up to "spot me" HA! Did I forget to tell you that this mini mountain was about 200 Ft. up??
Needless to say the "unexpected" happened! I lost my footing, and fell backwards. As I was falling, for a second all I could think is "my mother is going to kill me!" For some reason it all seemed to happen in slow motion, like I was being gently lifted down, and then boom! I landed in the limbs of a tree in one of the outcroppings. Nary a scratch on me, and proceeded to climb the rest of the way down, shaken but not bruised anywhere.
Doug PROMISED not to tell my parents, if I didn't tell his, and to this day they never knew about it.
Fast forward to my second marriage in 1964. After I had divorced my first husband, who I married on my 16th birthday because I was pregnant, and proceeded to have 4 more children with, I met and fell in love with my late husband. He was a Chef, and I worked with him at a restaurant. My Ex was threatening me (he was a wife beater)so I moved to Mass. and Russ and I were married.
Until that time I had custody of the kids, but when I remarried, my ex took me to court and won custody because Russ was African American/plus the kids would be out of state. My visitation rights were 2 weeks in the summer in Mass. with us....period! So, still being young and wanting kids, we tried to have our own.
The first child I lost was full term. I went into the hospital with a placenta per via and delivered a baby boy who died soon after birth. See....we had a blood incompatibility we weren't aware of. I'm RH Neg. Russ was positive.
While in the hospital, I had a visitor come to see me that I didn't know. He was dressed in a nice black suit and tie, so I thought he was a funeral director. Turns out he was the minister of a Friend of my husbands from work. He prayed with me, and invited us to attend his Church when I felt up to it. His wife even sent me a dozen roses, and I had never met her either. They were so kind, and I was so needy, that I accepted his invitation.
I had been raised and confirmed in a Lutheran Church in Ct.and felt the spiritual need to go back to a church. Any church, as long as it was Protestant. After attending quite a while I felt comfortable, and made it my home church. I answered an Altar call, and gave my life to the lord.
In the period of another year, I became pregnant again and thought , this time, we know there is a problem and will monitor it closely. I carried this little boy to 7 mo. before problems arose and we lost him too. I was in a state of depression for over a year.
I began praying about it, and cried out to God to please, please just send us one baby to love. (my ex had "cursed us" he said God wasn't going to give us any "Zebra children" because of the way "I left" my other kids!!
This only strengthened my resolve!! One day while I was alone at home, I prostrated myself on my living room floor and started praying in the spirit. I heard an audible voice whisper in my ear" if you trust in me, stop taking your birth control pills, and if you conceive you WILL have the baby. If you don't conceive, you should adopt a child who needs you"
I kept this to myself and stopped taking my pills. When I started the pills it was only because my Dr. advised me that with each RH pregnancy, it just gets worse, because Russ could only produce positive babies.(some men can produce either) I finally told him I wanted to try one more time. The message I had received had strengthened my faith so much.
Within two months, I was sound asleep in bed one night, and I awoke abruptly. I was on my stomach, and I sensed a presence at the foot of the bed. It was totally dark in the room, but I had my eyes closed tight because I was so scared!! I thought to myself,"am I awake or dreaming?" then I heard a voice (audibly) say to me "don't be afraid, I have been sent to tell you that you are going to have a child" huuuh??? Did I just hear that??? I just lay there a few more moments then I heard " I was there for you once before, and caught you when you fell! You can trust me" It was then that I sensed a feeling of being enfolded in a LARGE pair of wings that belonged to a very tall being full of nothing but PURE LOVE. Only then was I able to relax and go back to sleep. I asked dear hubby that morning if he heard anything during the night, and he did not.
I went to my OBGYN the next week and sure enough, "the rabbit died"!!! I carried my little girl to 7 1/2 mo. and delivered her by C Section early on purpose, because the blood problem was getting worse. She weighed 3lbs. at birth. She set the hospital record and made the local paper. She was called the Miracle baby, because she had 7 total blood replacements, and 5 push transfusions. She was under the "billi lights" for a couple of weeks, then in the incubator for the rest of her time in the Hospital. She was born on March 31, 1970 (my gram's BD) and I got a call after Church on Mother's day in May from her Pediatrician asking whether I'd like to come pick up my baby girl for Mother's Day!??? This child of mine, is the mother of my crystal child grandson!! Now you tell me that there are no Angels watching over us. I will never believe that. There is so much more......I may write a book someday, but I will end this chapter here with hopes that it helps someone else. Much Love JA O8)
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