August, 2009 Prayer, Light and Healing Requests

[Missy Vixen]

This month's prayer, light and healing requests thread opens with something that still amazes me every time I see it -- the sunrise. Every morning, the world is new again, isn't it?


Photo of the sunrise as it emerges from around the Earth by the Apollo 12 crew, November, 1969
Photo available at http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap960620.html

This month's quote is another encouragement to be who we're meant to be.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world." - Marianne Williamson

Let's walk into light today, and every day.

Love,
Julie/MV

*****Thank you to I Had A Dream for all her advice and help, and making sure last month's thread was a wonderful place for everyone!*****


Disclaimer to comply with DU rules and to protect those who are healers and energy workers from liability: this discussion of alternative and complementary healing methods serves as a means to come together to discuss and share options, experiences and modalities of healing other than the medical model. It is in no way intended to take the place of mainstream medical care/tests. Members are advised to seek the advice of a medical doctor before experimenting with any alternative healing methods.

[I Have A Dream]

1. Julie, thank you so much...

for the beautiful opening post, for volunteering to coordinate August's thread, and for sharing your energy and light with us. :hug:

Universe, please use the energy that is put into this thread to help all who come here for comfort, healing and peace -- regardless of whether they post or not. If they wish to benefit from the energy here, please make it easily available to them. Please also allow this energy to continue to help those in past threads who still need it, and please allow it to go forward to future request threads to help those in need in the future as well.

Universe, thank you for the love and light that you shine on us every second of every day. :loveya:

:grouphug:

[Missy Vixen]

2. IHAD, thank you so much for the wonderful meditation!

It's great to be here, and the thread's open for business!

:grouphug:
:loveya:

[rumpel]

3. thank you, Missy Vixen

a nice reminder of co-creating each moment..

[rumpel]

4. Need positive vibes...

so I can keep the current accommodation for the time required, provide food for the two & four legged -
immediate connection to a guarantor...

Thanks A Million

[I Have A Dream]

5. I'm sending, rumpel.

It would make me so happy for you to get a break, my friend.

:hug:

[rumpel]

6. thank you, Dream

you will be the first to know..

:hug:

:yourock:

[Missy Vixen]

7. rumpel, I'm sending those positive vibrations to you

I'm hoping for the very best for you and those you love.

:hug:

[rumpel]

9. thank you

:hug:

[BlueIris]

8. Money/guarantor light for Ms. rumpel.

:-)

[rumpel]

10. thanks

:)

[FirstLight]

11. I am afraid this will sound silly... BUT

I think I need some healing and prayers for clarity with relationship and healing for my new BF so he can let go of his past and hopefully appreciate what WE are creating...

This guy is really great and conscious, we have both talked at length about how we are conscious enough to know "we want to do things differently" in relationship - but that we don't know how that really LOOKS...so this is a lesson for us both. And if I had to say what our soul agreement was, it is just that - learning how to be in relationship in the MOMENT, experiencing the joy and expressing our fears and seeing what comes of it. And if we are truly in the moment then there is no "goal" in mind and it relieves us of trying to fit ourselves or eachother into that mold. (and the past dysfunctions...)

...at the same time he is really dealing with letting go issues from his last relationship, which ended in a breakup/get-together cycle for a year and he is still trying to close the door of his heart - but he feels guilty and has a big attachment to being the "bigger person" and trying to be gracious or "there for her" even after the fact and after SHE dumped HIM the last time.. (for whatever reasons, I don't pretend to know the 'story' or the Truth behind the dynamic, I'm just the one who sees him going through the muck of it)

AS I attempt to hold my own and stay grounded and not project and be honest and open ...there is still a fear in me he will drop me and run at the slightest opening with her, even if HE knows that is part of the unhealthy pattern.
I am also NOT introducing him to my family/kids at this point...partially because he is nervous about getting attached (the last 2 women he was with had kids too...and I am sure the attachment was difficult for him when they split up)
and partially because I still don't know where WE are going and need to feel like I WANT to take it to that level.
Right now is about ME learning how to be with someone and just be MYSELF, not Mommy...and we have spoken at length about this too.

so I don't know what I need most...just some peace of mind and help shining light into his heart - and mine...

we are really well suited and he "gets it" on many levels and the funk is just NOT like him...it is this old paradigm trying to hold on and keep him feeling like he HAS NO POWER... I am the opposite, my old paradigm prevents me from letting someone in because I am afraid they will TAKE MY POWER...


anyway, there it is...some light for me to have a GREAT and EASY summer romance would be nice!
(and if it goes beyond summer, even nicer :)


ON EDIT: we got together right before the whole sequence of the eclipses started, on summer solstice. (propitious) he's a Pisces and I am a Cappy...and we both have backgrounds in journalism and webdesign, and really are looking forward to collaborating on some work stuff too....which is very cool! I've been mostly single for 5 years, he just finished this relationship as the hard part of the fall/winter energies were rocking us all... BUT - FWIW...he was the one who initiated contact and the first date. We "met" on Match.com, but on our first date realized we knew eachother from the same "scene" of public relations, radio, newspaper connections, etc... And chemistry is HOT, and sweet...snuggles and good feelings of just comfort, which again, we both recognize openly without gushing. We went on our first road trip 2 weeks ago and had NO issues - we work really well together in the kitchen, on homework, and even in 104 temps and no AC in my car, we had deep talks and good tunes... and stopped and played in the river and had a total gigglefest...
so anyway, that's a little background too... I don't know if it helps...just thanks for the light and love sent this way.

[I Have A Dream]

12. FirstLight, I'm asking for the Universe to give you both the support you need...

to be able to deal with this relationship in a healthy, mature manner leaving the past behind except where it helps you to better deal with this current relationship. (This or something even better for the highest good of all involved.)

Much love & light to you both. You, sweet woman, certainly deserve a break and someone who loves you exactly as you are and enough to not try to control you.

:hug:

[FirstLight]

13. GEEZ! was that fast!

I think we just "broke up"

The past few times we have talked he was been doing the 'wifflewaffle' wih the old feelings, blahblahblah
and I have REALLY tried to hold the place of non attachment and compassion and talking him through it...
but it felt like the more I did it the more he played victim
and I just got to the point where I want to say "manUP!"

so i guess i kinda did, i cut to the chase and allowed myself to say that I think he is the one that has to CHOOSE tho feel okay, and if not than he shouldn't be leading me on...

I learned that my heart can open up again, i learned I am not dead inside and that I can still enjoy sex, and that I know how to remain as open and honest as possible..
and I also told him (since he said one of the main reasons he was back out there is at the urging of his shrink) to tell his shrink that it was a bad call cuz he hurt me in the process of learning his limits

I allowed myself to come out and name my fear -
that I am too strong for most anyone I meet and they can't stand up with me an take it ON! (That most men are really pussies when it comes to personal action & growth)


I realize now he was playing the same "pushme-pullyou" that he had going with the ex...and I wasn't going to let it fly.


So I am getting better at realizing what doesn't work for me, what I can't do for a relationship, and that I won't shove my gut feelings aside to keep a man around...And my learning curve is getting shorter, time-wise.

And, that is actually kind of a scary realization because I DO worry about being alone.
But for now I have plenty of work and family stuff to keep me busy...and I won't need to get laid again for at least 6 mos! lol


...so why am I still crying?

[I Have A Dream]

14. I'm so sorry, FirstLight.

:(

I suspect that you're crying because you had felt hopeful that there was a chance that this would work. Don't give up hope! At some point, I bet you'll meet a person who is healthy and whole and who loves you exactly as you are. I'm glad that you're not settling for less until then.

I'm sending healing light your way. :hug:

[Missy Vixen]

15. FirstLight, I'm sending a hug

I'm also out here believing that the perfect man for you will present himself exactly when he's supposed to walk into your life.

(Of course, I hope this is sooner than later.)

To quote our wonderful IHAD, I'm believing whatever happens will be best for you, for him, and for the universe.

:hug:

[FirstLight]

16. Thanks for the hugs

...guess it's time to just invest in some ice cream and get ready for the freaking Eclipse ! I wish the waves of
but at least I found out in one month rather than a year..so I must be getting better at reading the energy of a person or situation...right?

still, I *DO* wish he'd be the Prince and ride up on his horse and say it was just a momentary lapse and that I am really the one he desires...

:rofl: I've watched waaayyy tooo many chick flicks!

[Missy Vixen]

17. FirstLight, I write romance novels

People scoff at them, but truly, all women deserve a loving, supportive, healthy relationship. ALL of us.

I will keep believing for the perfect relationship for you. ;-)

[FirstLight]

31. ...these energies are flipflopping

am I the wuss? He came over last night and held me and said he doesn't want to lose me either because of fear, and thanked me for being so wise, and caring ...

dammitt, and the tenderness and genuine quality of our laughter and our shoptalk and our cuddles is too good to let go

so, where does that leave us? was anything resolved? will this eclipse finally shake loose all th doubts and the lingering worries and just allow us to grow together?
can I hold for that to be the reality we create?

[BlueIris]

18. Please send me good vibes re: my creative work today. August 3rd is a special day for me.

I've thought up not one, but two really great ideas for novels on this day (and yes, I'm working on one of them).

I'd love to have either some brilliant flashes of insight today or get some "hits" from above WRT my latest project (I have a title, but nothing is really "coming" as to how to flesh it out).

[I Have A Dream]

19. OK, BI, I'm sending. Good luck! nt

[Missy Vixen]

20. BlueIris, I'm sending those good vibrations

Just remember: It's one page at a time. You can do this!

:hug:

[rumpel]

24. Supportive energies for BI

to connect...

[Fire Walk With Me]

21. Sending light for all thread readers/ASAH members...

I love that quote. Thanks for the reminder!

[rosesaylavee]

22. Could use a hug today...

Not having a good one today...

Found out that our vet was killed in a car accident - just a wonderful guy and such a terrible accident...

And at the end of the work day, found out that our bonus program is changing so that if I want to 'maintain' the amount I am currently getting I would have to work an extra 2 hours/day.

And it's the time of month to pay the bills.

I am just pretty low right now.

[I Have A Dream]

23. I'm so sorry about the loss of someone who you care about, rosie.

:(

May he cross quickly and easily to the other side. Much love and light to you, my friend, as you try to deal with this heartbreaking news. :hug:

In reference to the bonus program, that's just not right. I wish that I could fix it for you. :(

I'm asking for the Universe to help you to stay in balance and to help you to deal with the financial issues that concern you. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

:hug::hug::loveya::hug::hug:

[rosesaylavee]

26. thanks IHAD

been looking at the online ads tonight. there may be something there. may just go to bed and tomorrow will be a better one.

[rumpel]

25. light & love on this difficult day,

:grouphug:

[rosesaylavee]

27. thanks rumpel

:hug:

[Missy Vixen]

32. Rosesaylavee, I am so sorry to read this

I hope that you are feeling comfort from all of those who are thinking about you right now.

I will send my best thoughts of comfort and healing to you, and to all those affected by this man's death right now.

I'm also going to believe that the situation at work will resolve itself for everyone's best.

:hug:

[rosesaylavee]

35. thanks Missy!

I had a better day today. Worked out the bonus deal - just stopped adding what I considered (and is) value-added details to what I do and just churned it out as that is what they obviously only value. Looked for a new job online last night and think I found something to send my resume to - and I know some of the people who work there. And this morning wrote a letter of inquiry for a project that is near and dear to me that I would love to do with my time.

So. Much better day. A little more over the shock of my vet's death... that will take awhile I think.

I love this place and thank you kindly for your thoughts and well wishes. I am coming 'round again.

[Shallah Kali]

28. My Grandmother has a cold which she shared with my Mom. Now my throat is scratchy

dang. Gave my Grandmother half my supply of yogi cold season tea and Mom the other half. Will have to steal some back if my immune system does not rally the troops sufficiently in time. I have olive leaf extract ready to go & Mom is on that already. Did not dare give any to my Grandmother with all the meds she is on. Please send good vibes our way esp. my Grandmother who I love even if she gave me a hard time Sunday about saying a word she herself uses regularly :p

[I Have A Dream]

29. I'm sending your way, Shallah. May you all return to full good health...

quickly and easily. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[Missy Vixen]

33. Shallah, I hope you and Grandma will be back to health soon

I'm sending healing vibes to all of you right now.

:hug:

[BlueIris]

30. Vibes for Lounger AwakeAtLast.

Thread is here, but basically: Iraq-->husband injured-->husband returns, brain injury, cheating, divorce. Very sad.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=8966950&mesg_id=8966950

[Missy Vixen]

34. What a heartbreaking situation

BlueIris, thank you so much for bringing it here.

I hope that the situation works itself out in the best way for AwakeAtLast and her daughter. She deserves the best.

[I Have A Dream]

36. Yes, very sad.

I responded over there. Thanks for bringing it here, BI.

[BlueIris]

37. Special vibes for Lounger garybeck's niece. (6 year old having surgery today.)

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=8969129&mesg_id=8969129

[I Have A Dream]

40. Surgery's bad for anyone, but it breaks my heart...

when young children have to go through it. :(

I responded there. Thanks, BI.

[Brewman_Jax]

38. Please hold a good thoughts

My mother is holding up under the stress of looking after my dad, who's still in the nursing home. The 2nd post-op appointment shows progress. The leg is healing well, albeit slowly. Still fighting with insurance and getting Medicaid started and the stress of all of that. (After dealing with all of that, I say socialize insurance and execute all of the insurance executives. I find that I don't get much arguement and the topic quickly changes. :P)

It's hard seeing once strong and functional people deteriorate into bent and broken people. I wonder if the theory that the body reflects the mind is accurate. :think: My father was an old man a long time ago, and my mother has never been one to be alone or take a "leap of faith" and go. My father was a rotten husband and father, and she knew that she needed to leave him years ago. She had a laundry list of why she couldn't. Now, they both have a laundry list of health...challenges to deal with.

My artist younger brother has been laid off, again. The part-time job with the web blogging company got cut, but they liked his work and will call him when things pick up.

I think the only one doing really well is the cat.

[I Have A Dream]

41. I'm sending light to your family, Brewman.

They're very lucky to have you. :hug:

Good for the cat.

:)

[BlueIris]

47. ((((( Brewman ))))) nt

[lildreamer316]

39. Light for greenbriar, please

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=389x6229271

Colon cancer...

[I Have A Dream]

42. I'm sending healing light her way. I hope that...

they're wrong again and that the doctors are able to find out what the problem is very soon. (...and that it's completely treatable.) (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[BlueIris]

46. Jesus Christ. Sending lots of energy gb's way. nt

[SeattleGirl]

43. I just found this request for vibes in the lounge, for a 6 year old girl.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=8969129&mesg_id=8969129

Light for a successful surgery, and positive healing.

[I Have A Dream]

44. BlueIris posted it also here. This little girl must need a double dose.

:)

I'm happy to send some more light and love her way.

Thanks for bringing it here, SG. :hug:

[SeattleGirl]

45. Apologies that I didn't see that, but yeah, a double dose would be

good.

[BlueIris]

48. I feel so bad for this girl. My father had the same problem as a child,

when technology wasn't so great. I know times have changed, so I really hope the medical advances help this kid.

[BlueIris]

49. Anti-migraine vibes, please.

I would normally run my special "digital Reiki" CD, (courtesy of our own Celebration) but it's stuck in my hard drive. I have meds if it gets to that point, but right now, I still think it can be avoided.

[Brewman_Jax]

50. Good thoughts to you

from me and the cat.

Feel better quickly!

[Delphinus]

51. Don't want to be selfish,

but I need some light & love.

It's been such a stressful week - a roller coaster of emotions in my personal life, in my professional life, and in my life as a single payer advocate.

I keep being reminded of the thread that asked where I was 19-years ago and remember that I've healed and come a long way - I am no longer the same person ... but I am really being knocked out of my center and out of my space of love and connection to the Universe and feel overwhelmed.

I am grateful for whatever you can spare. Thank you.

And may all be blessed.

[I Have A Dream]

52. Delphinus, it's not selfish to ask for what you need.

You give so much to others all the time. Your needs are important too. :hug:

I will definitely be sending you light and love. If you need to talk, please don't hesitate to PM me.

:loveya:

[get the red out]

53. My Sister needs prayers and healing

She called me tonight at the end of her rope mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. She works for a completely wretched misogynist who gets by with treating female employees terribly. She is highly educated and has tried to find another decent job for two years, applying for something like 120 jobs and having numerous interviews, all with no results. She is having suicidal thoughts, is in a terrible emotional state, and worries about the stress on her marriage and two little girls. Financially, she can't just quit, and has to have a job making at least close to what she is making now. I told her she would be better off quitting than dying, dead people don't earn a dime. I told her not to let this man own her emotions, he has enough power already.

Please pray for her if possible, she suffers from depression and this job puts her into despair. She said she thinks God hates her because she can't find another job and so many other things have gone wrong this week. She is a wonderful person and a great mother. I don't know what I would do without her, she is my only sibling and she is my friend.

Thanks to you all.

Mary Ann

[northernlights]

54. hugs and healing light to your sister GTRO

It seems that everything that comes to mind probably sounds so trite. Her daughters need her here and alive. Like everything else, the job is temporary. Years from now, she'll have forgotten it, or it will just be a dim memory and she'll wonder why she took it all so seriously. Some day the boss will get his, and with luck she may get to see it and have a dose of schadenfreude. :hug: :hug: :hug:

[get the red out]

55. Thank you northernlights

Not trite, especially with all you have been going through yourself.

She is a smart cookie and will make it if the despair will only leave her. I tried to help her see when we talked, but it's hard. She sees everything as being part of a world out to get her right now, from the dog injuring herself to her six year old wiggling around and falling off a stool and getting a black eye. I meditated on sending her light and asking her guides to help her use it.

[I Have A Dream]

57. I'm sorry to hear that your sister is going through such a rough time, Mary Ann.

I will pray for her and send light her way with the intention that it helps to bring her back into balance and stability. Additionally, I ask for the Universe to help her to have a job (maybe even this same job that is somehow transformed to no longer suck the life out of her) that feeds her in more ways than just her stomach. Most of all, I ask that she be able to feel hope. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[get the red out]

59. Thank you IHAD

:loveya:

[BlueIris]

60. Yikers. How awful.

Light for her. There is nothing worse than an abusive employer.

[Sienna86]

74. Sending love, light and healing

for your sister. I hope she soon finds hope that the future will be brighter.

[crikkett]

56. am i the only person who hates their own wedding anniversary?

it's not like I'm sad that I married this person. I'm sad that I have to go through this melodrama every anniversary.

seriously, what the hell.

[I Have A Dream]

58. crikkett, does it also disturb your husband that this keeps happening?

If so, maybe in future years, the two of you could agree beforehand that nothing that is said during that time will be able to cause discord between you on your special day. Pretty much a "get out of jail free" card for that day.

I'm sending light and love your way. Hopefully you'll reconcile very soon, and then you can celebrate your love for each other regardless of what day of the year it actually is.

:hug:

[BlueIris]

61. Light for the Kennedy family.

Eunice and Ted especially.

[I Have A Dream]

62. I'm joining you, BI. nt

[Digit]

63. Damn, I fell last night

Just 9 days after having my knee replaced. Since I felt myself going down, I turned to land on my left side trying to protect my right knee. I hit my back, hip and head. The good news is I did not seem to injure my surgery site, but damn, I feel like a truck ran over me.
My daughter left for the beach this morning so I could use whatever light you can muster for protection and healing.

Thank you~:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

64. I'm sending your way, Digit.

I'm so sorry that this happened (:(), but I'm glad that your knee hasn't been affected.

[FirstLight]

65. Sending gratitude & love for everyone here in need (& a request)

I am so Blessed to Have you All here as a little community of belief and light and angels...I blows my mind that I have been coming here for over a year and feel so at home with my fellow like-minded light carriers :)

To all those here this month I am taking this time to send a pulse of hope and healing and love - may it serve you each in your own needs for the best of outcomes for all involved... a-ho!

~~~~ AND
On the day of the eclipse I actually brought a newspaper home ( I used to wrk for the Trib, and can't bring myself to read it much anymore, the stories/writing has degraded and they have gone from being a daily to 3 days a week...very tourism based. So to bring a paper home, about half the time I end up throwing it away. This afternoon I sat down and flipped through, slowing down in the classifieds to see if there were any more jobs listed - hopefully an indicator of a better economy to come ... and read an ad for the Comunity Editor Position.
I actually used to fill in for about 2 years when the other lady would go on vacay. She retired, and the paper hired from within, so I really had no chance. I've done some freelance stories since...but this was a BIG break! So of course I applied...full formal cover letter, resume with new professionalism and qualifications, and writing samples, including links to their own paper! lol
The Mg ed has been there and moved up from city editor over the past 2 years and she has been the one still throwing me stories...

Please send good vibes! I posted the resume friday afternoon, she will come in and get it today, perhaps tomorrow...
*fingers crossed*

:grouphug:
Thanks everyone!

(PS - the update on the BF - we had some relieving openness and honesty come out of this shift and both of us felt the eclipse turn things around and are really trying to keep ourselves from being "goal focused" in relationship...and just enjoy eachother for the lessons and joy in the moment. we'll see how it goes, so far so good...we are closer I think for each hurdle :) )

[I Have A Dream]

66. Good luck, FirstLight! I'm sending good vibes your way.

I'm glad that things are going well with your BF. :)

[rumpel]

69. good vibes coming your way...

:grouphug:

[Missy Vixen]

67. Okay, I need some good vibes, please

I got food poisoning on Saturday afternoon after accompanying some of my girlfriends to a restaurant for lunch. I'm improving. Slowly.

I would like to go to Seahawks training camp tomorrow morning. Yes, it's completely ridiculous, but please think good thoughts for me (and my sore abdomen...).

Thank you so much.
Love,
Julie

[I Have A Dream]

68. Julie, I'm sending healing vibes your way...

and, if it is for the highest good of all involved, I'm asking that you be helped to make it to the Seahawk's training camp tomorrow morning, feeling well enough to enjoy the excursion.

:hug:

[Missy Vixen]

71. IHAD, thank you so much!

Yes, it's totally selfish compared to all the other really important requests on this thread.

:hug:
:loveya:

[I Have A Dream]

73. Julie, this thread is for ALL needs. Your needs are important too.

Requests certainly don't have to only be in reference to life or death issues.

I really hope that you'll be feeling well enough to go tomorrow. :hug:

[Missy Vixen]

76. IHAD, I'm still not 100%, but I feel much better

Anyone reading this thread -- I sent IHAD a PM yesterday to say that I felt warmth in my belly. It was amazing!

In the meantime, practice was cancelled this morning due to rain, but they've now offered an alternate time that nobody else got... I'm pretty excited!

:woohoo:

-MV

[I Have A Dream]

77. Now that another day has gone by, I hope that you're feeling back to normal, MV.

:)

I'm glad that you didn't have to miss the practice.

[Shallah Kali]

70. ate something that does not agree

{{{clutches stomach}}} oh the nausea.............

[Missy Vixen]

72. Oh, Shallah, I am thinking about you right now

I am hoping that you feel better immediately. This seems to be going around, doesn't it?

:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

75. I'm sorry that you're not feeling well, Shallah.

:(

I'm sending healing light your way. :hug:

[lildreamer316]

78. Yikes. Calming vibes sent your way.

May a quick purge and recovery come.

[murielm99]

79. Needs vibes and healing for our

Democratic group. There is so much dissension.

It makes me afraid and anxious.

Thanks, everyone.

[I Have A Dream]

80. I'll join you, muriel. It's very sad to see.

:(

[BlueIris]

81. Hey, muriel--for clarity, did you mean

the Democratic Party, DU.com, or this forum?

[I Have A Dream]

82. Good question, BI. I took it to me the Democratic party, but...

now I'm thinking that it may be the group that's in the picture in her sig line. Hopefully she lets us know since I've probably not done what she requested.

[murielm99]

85. The group that is my sig line picture.

It is our county group.

Some of it may be my fault because I tried to bring it out into the open to get it to stop. We need to move on without bitterness. It is tearing me up and harming my health.

[BlueIris]

90. Check. (Terribly sorry, by the way.)

I had a Democrat supporting group crumble in my city after 2004--the end was not pretty, and everyone was left with hurt feelings.

[BlueIris]

83. Send emotionally stabilizing light, please.

I'm still in Western, OR. Thanks in advance.

[I Have A Dream]

84. I'm sending, BI.

I hope that you feel better soon.

[rosesaylavee]

87. Hugs and light to you!

:hug:

[rosesaylavee]

86. Request for light and support

I sent a letter earlier this week to a group requesting support for an idea I've been tooling and retooling for about 2 years. Please send some light for me, for them... or better yet, just make them say Yes and do whatever I ask them to do? :P

Ok, I know, I know... for the higher good and all that ... but it's a really REALLY great idea but I need some money or a grant to implement it. And if they want to step in and be part of it, great.

[I Have A Dream]

88. OK, I'm sending supportive light your way, rosie.

If it's for the highest good of all involved (yeah, yeah... I've got to say it :D), I ask that the Universe clear the way for you to easily manifest this exactly as you desire and to hold your hand along the way so that you can avoid all stumbling blocks.

[rosesaylavee]

89. Thanks Dream!

I was kidding... ok, kinda kidding. :)
But it's just a great idea - one of the best I've had. Just need the cash and/or direction on how to do it without it. AND, it would hugely help a lot of other people in all sorts of ways.

I really really like this idea and am very grateful for it.

[BlueIris]

91. ~~~~~ grant money for rose ~~~~~

I decided to direct energy that way since that's my feeling about where the money will arrive from.

[rosesaylavee]

92. Thanks BlueIris!

:hug:

[BlueIris]

93. Please send appropriately gentle tie-breaking energy to me today.

I am, once again, trying to get out of my unpleasant living situation. This will require severing some nasty, dysfunctional ties. Thanks in advance.

[I Have A Dream]

94. Sorry that I didn't see this until today, BI.

I'll still send energy your way. May the end result be what's best for the highest good of all involved so that all parties end up satisfied.

[BlueIris]

95. Wow, thanks I Have. But, um, er, while you should do what you think is best,

in my opinion, you shouldn't waste any energy hoping for "the best" for my STBE roommates. Just saying.

[BlueIris]

96. I am officially wiped out.

I really wore myself out this week and am paying for it now. (Dead tired.) Please send appropriate regenerative energy. Thanks in advance.

[I Have A Dream]

97. I'm sending. nt

[BlueIris]

98. Please send healing light to my beloved John Kerry.

And his daughter, Vanessa, who apparently both had surgery in the last week. Thanks in advance.

[I Have A Dream]

99. Happy to send their way. nt

[BlueIris]

100. Thanks, hon. Oh, and thanks for my star. I made a sticky for you.

("I Love I Have a Dream.")

[I Have A Dream]

101. Awww! Thank you!

:D

[glowing]

102. I really need some hugs and prayers.

I am a step-mother to a 4yr old boy. He has a speech and language issue.. which is wayyy better now. My husband and I had him enrolled in a school for 1 1/2 yrs now. His mother decided this year to change counties. They did it without any cosultation and all summer long the people who are involved with his ESE program have told me he's all set for school nearby. We have him Mon thru Thursday.. and he's at his mom's Thurday night until 1st thing Mon AM. We cannot physically drive him 45 minutes out of our way 4 days/ week. Now that the county released him, without consultation or consideration towards our custody days, we cannot get him back.

Please, just let us know the way to protect him. His mother moves about every 6 months. She's always had to live with someone else. Most times she doesn't work or works part-time. Just last year she got her second DUI. She is unable to drive and doesn't even have a license at this time. Its been my husband and I who have had to shuttle him back and forth. Its been sooo hard. We have schedules where my husband and I barely see one another just to make our son's life easier and without daycare (other than pre-school). I don't know what is right in this situation. I know I am completely biased. I also know that I think we must go back into court and have a judge make this determination.

The thing that hurts the most is that we did all the pre-work to get him into a good school originally and live in a good neighborhood with better educational opportunities. I know that his bio-mother has told me that she is miserable and her only goal in life is to make sure mine is as well. My concern is for this child whom I've helped raise since he was born. He's my baby.

Some well wishes for the best outcome for the child is my request. Thank you.

[I Have A Dream]

103. glowing, the love that you have for your child is beautiful.

I will definitely pray for and send light to your situation. May it resolve so that things are for the highest good of all involved.

:hug::hug::hug::hug:

[glowing]

104. Thank you.

[BlueIris]

105. Oh, glowing. That is a terrible situation.

And yes, it does sound like it is time for the courts to intervene.

((((( StepSon of glowing )))))

[glowing]

110. It does appear that is what we are going to have to do.

We had a slim possibility of getting into the spot that was being held for him tenatively at the school near our home.. she called them and told them to release the spot.

For now, we will homescholl until we have a court settlement. It isn't the type of thing that we really have the money for.. Hopefully, this will come through for us as well.

[Manifestor_of_Light]

106. I wish I had more energy and honestly don't know what to do about it.

I'm not depressed. I have just not had enough energy to do everything I needed to do. I'm retired now and should be doing things I love to do. I water the flowers twice a day so they don't die in the heat, feed myself, sometimes go for a swim at a club I joined, and that's about it.

I have not known what it feels like to have normal energy since I was a child of eleven. That is when I got Hashimoto's disease and my thyroid croaked and I have had to take it ever since. That was over 50 years ago.

[I Have A Dream]

108. I can completely relate to what you're saying, MoL.

I don't ever remember feeling energetic, even as a child. It's a very unpleasant way to live when there are things that you want to accomplish. I also do only what I absolutely have to do to get through the day, and then I completely crash at night and on the weekends. Everything is a chore. :( This is one reason that I never had children.

I am sending light your way, and I will pray for your situation. It would be wonderful to find a way to overcome this for both of us. :hug:

[Shallah Kali]

107. Light for balance in the weather and to all beings in the path of severe weather

May all human contributions to severe weather be healed and healthy balance restored to nature in the manner that serves the highest good of all beings.

[I Have A Dream]

109. I'll join you in this. nt

[BlueIris]

111. Okay, everyone. Please send me protective energy for tomorrow.

I have to be around both scary roommates for a while, and I. Hate. That. Thanks in advance.

[I Have A Dream]

112. I'm sending, BI.

May it be uneventful and over as quickly as possible.

[Shallah Kali]

113. Vibes for my Mother and I - having a collision of conflicting compulsions

which leads to an exchange of passive aggressive nonsense :(

Please don't read the below if futile family drama hits a nerve. I need to vent even if no one actually reads it.

I am a recovering hoarder. She doesn't want to have much of anything in the house. I have 4 small to medium waist high bookcases and a couple of printer paper boxes full of books that are going to spontaneously combust and kill us all in our sleep any day now. When I asked how they would catch fire she has no answer but still thinks this is a rational worry. I, in her opinion, own too many clothes in her opinion as I own more than can fit in my bureau and closet. Actually I have cleaned out enough old clothing that no longer fits or looks dreadful on me or gifts that didn't fit, looked dreadful but I felt too guilty to give to charity that it probably would if I didn't mind stretching out my sweaters which I keep in a couple storage bins. I have tried asking several times how much is too much when worn down by the complaints (which make me wonder if she thinks the clothing might be capable of spontaneously combusting like books) considering cutting down so I wouldn't have to deal with the stress but she couldn't name a number. Less than I have but more than a week's worth of outfits. In the past when I have hauled out trash bags full of clothing to give to the Goodwill she is right on me saying I need to do more that very night. With the tendency to hoard I know I need to keep an eye on the amount so I don't go from not needing to do the laundry every week to hoarding but I don't think I near regressing there yet. Funny thing is one of my Mother's best friends has literally two rooms of clothing floor to ceiling rack upon rack, row upon row of clothing plus whatever is crammed in her bedroom. One room is bigger than our kitchen & living room combined. Some how I don't think my Mother nags her about having too much stuff. It is frustrating she can't acknowledge the progress I have made. I have to ask her to congratulate me for going though the anxiety and often full blown panic attacks to let go of things. I don't know what would be enough in her opinion though I have tried to get her to tell me many times. At this point I figure this is a compulsion for her. I am in therapy for this and other reasons working to figure out what is a reasonable amount of stuff to own and work though the compulsion hoarding parts so I can stay in that range without my body going on red alert because I bought 1 dozen eggs instead of 2 and the store might be sold out next week as they sometimes are of the organic eggs :crazy:

While I am adopted i came by ocd honestly from both sides of my biological family. One biological grandmother has it bad and my Mother sometimes uses that as a goad saying I will end up like her if I don't get rid of enough stuff. I think that a cruel thing to say. I am already in therapy, I am making progress with occasional steps back but I keep working. I am trying to accept that what I do will never be right in her eyes for whatever reason so my gut stops going into knots every time she brings these things up. Trying to discuss amounts of items, not just clothing, gets her 'we have too much stuff, it's going to give me a heart attack, the house will never get clean, I should just throw everything away' speech going. Like when I tried to talk about food so we do have enough in the winter so if we loose power (which usually happens) or storms cause a shortage at the stores as happened a couple winters ago how much is reasonable to have on hand. I can't discuss things without getting paniced and then angry so I give up for a time. A couple days ago i tried asking if she could help me go through some things be there as a support person to remind me to breathe normally and just a supportive presence like my therapist would if I could pay to haul her out here for in home stuff. I had ask Mom to watch a few episodes of A&Es Obsessed a few weeks back and told her that was the basic thing - just be supportive and let me cry or emote and remind me to breathe normally. It quickly went from trying to explain what I meant by support person to the 'we have too much stuff!!!' rant. Then I go off and unlike her I cuss. Then feel like a piece of feces for yelling and cussing at my Mom. ugh. I have to accept that Mom as much as she loves me does not have the skills or emotional awareness or whatever the heck it is to do this for me or discuss healthy amounts of stuff at all. If it hasn't happened in this many years it is time to give up on trying to educate her about ocd and just focus on dealing with my reactions to her.

I know my issues are not her fault. The problem is having to deal with another person's upset on top of my own is overwhelming. It is hard for me to go outside at after dark on my own anxiety and at times panic occur. I make the effort though with practice runs like taking out the garbage or vegetable peelings to the compost pile. It's all practice to get over the habit of fear in those circumstances. So I get my nerve up to face the fear, get the bowl of peelings and my Mother comes in the room and starts fussing at me. Don't go out now it's dark. Let me do it. I will do it tomorrow so let me go to bed (as if I am blocking her from going to her bedroom????). Last time this happened her anxiety increased my anxiety so I gave up after asking what was going to happen to me if I just went across the yard. Was I right as a kid expecting bad aliens to abduct me? Had she heard the wolves or coyotes lately? What was going to happen to me if I went outside? she couldn't answer, just begging me to let her do it in the morning so she could go to sleep without worrying about me. Poor woman is so afraid and can't see it isn't always rational : (

[I Have A Dream]

114. I'm assuming that you opted to remove the details, Shallah.

(I see that you edited it.) If so, that's fine. Otherwise, there's something missing from the post.

I'm sending light your way. May you both return to balance so that you can resume your loving relationship without drama. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[Shallah Kali]

115. I coded the text in white for anyone who really wants the gory details

stuff that would make a great sitcom - the messy hoarder living with the neatnik who doesn't want to own anything :p

[Missy Vixen]

116. Shallah, one of my friends is a recovering hoarder, too

Plus, we need to get rid of a LOT of stuff in our house now. The clutter drains me.

I will send the best thoughts to you, and I hope that the universe can make them something that helps in any way at all.

Thinking of you,
Julie/MV

[Shallah Kali]

118. clutter sooths me, maybe because it seems to numb the energy in the house...

I know all the same this is just another facet of the anxiety disorder and I need to continue to develop healthier self-soothing stress reducing ways. I am related to a full blown hoarder who wants to keep bad food, just plucks the mold out and eats stuff :puke: Many have tried to help but this person can't see the what is wrong, throws a fit when anything is tossed and just goes right back to piling up junk :( I may be messy but I am paradoxically germ-phobic so while things are not well arranged - YET - anything germ laden is taken care of even if that nothing else gets done that day!

[I Have A Dream]

117. That's weird. I thought that I had tried to highlight it to see if...

that's what you had done, but I didn't see anything. Now I do...

Your life really does sound like a version of The Odd Couple, Shallah. I'm sorry for both of you that you are in this situation. I absolutely adore my mother, but I can't imagine living with her. Bless you both! I hope that you can ultimately come to some sort of compromise and understanding so that you both can live comfortably. :hug:

[Shallah Kali]

121. Thank you. my therapist has called us that when I tell her about these incidents

Once I get over the initial fight and my stomach stops trying to turn itself into a gordian knot I can feel compassion for my Mom. She is a highly functional phobic person who worries constantly and says she isn't angry even when she raise her voice. Her case is mild (esp. compared to me) but she can't see that it's not rational to think a bookcase of books will spontaneously burst into flames. I feel sympathy for her fear because I know that same gut clenching irrational fear from my own set of phobias & ocd and wish I could help so she wouldn't that level of fear any more but with denail nothing can be done. I see her get twitchy when she talks about her own mother's bit of a hoard in the attic and basement which are both pretty full of stuff. Mom longs to haul it all off to the dump even the stuff that might old enough and good enough shape to wanted by a collector if my grandmother ever could stand to part with it. Some is just tupperware and reader digest condensed books suitable only for recycling.

[Digit]

119. Please help to remove the post surgical pain which has again become severe

On Friday, I had physical therapy to regain range of motion after my total knee replacement and had a lot of increased pain afterward which was to be expected. Unfortunately the severity of the pain has increased and been with me ALL freaking weekend. I am maintaining my pain medication, but it is not helping like it did before. I am puzzled, dismayed and somewhat concerned since I am in week 3 post op and the pain levels had been diminishing.
After I post this, I am going to elevate my leg and ice it down, although it does not look swollen. The scar is healing nicely and there are no signs of infection.
I have physical therapy again tomorrow so I will also be mentioning this to him.
All I ask is for it to be bearable so whatever you can send my way would be appreciated before I look for ways to gnaw off my leg. :eyes:

[I Have A Dream]

120. I'll send healing energy, Digit.

I will also pray that your pain be relieved.

I'm glad that you're able to see your physical therapist tomorrow.

:hug:

[lildreamer316]

122. Healing light for Matcom's father..

triple bypass in the morning.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=9002644&mesg_id=9002644

[I Have A Dream]

126. Healing light to Datcom.

May he heal quickly and easily. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[lildreamer316]

123. Of course, lots of prayers for Ted Kennedy and family.

There really are no words...

[Missy Vixen]

124. I want to thank everyone here for making this such a nice month

Obviously, I had NO experience doing this, :eyes: but it was a great experience.

Thank you again to IHAD, who goes out of her way to make things nice and comfortable for everyone here. She also made a great blessing at the top of the thread.

I hope next month brings blessings and hope to everyone at ASAH and their loved ones.

Again, thank you so much. I have learned so much from all of you, and consider myself very fortunate to be here!

-MV

[I Have A Dream]

127. Thank you so much for volunteering, MV.

It is really nice to have your energy in this thread. :)

:hug:

[Shallah Kali]

125. Need vibes - it feels and smells like fall already, bad associations

it's triggered old anxiety w/some difficult situations that happened around this time of year. I am working to release but it isn't going easy.

[I Have A Dream]

128. I'm sending supportive energy your way, Shallah.

I'm asking all of the beings around you who love and support you to be extra supportive right now and to help you to maintain your balance as you make your way through this. May you pass through it quickly and easily.

:hug: