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Edited on Thu Nov-06-08 11:48 PM by NJPuggle
You're not going under it on my watch or on anybody else black's with any sense in their head.
This is the gay 911. Stand up and be counted.
In order to defeat the terrorists, we need to control how the media is used in the game. I would say let anger be your fuel on this but don't let it consume, control or compromise the cause.
When I was fired by a white lesbian because I wouldn't date her, June 4, 2008, this year, from a job I was extremely good at, I was A.N.G.R.Y. When she had two friends of hers who didn't even work there sign affidavits stating I didn't have the skills to work there and that that was why she fired me - despite the fact I was working very successfully in that field at a higher level in a bigger city a decade and a half, and had been written up in the NY Times for my achievements in it, before she, in her small town, switched to my field of work from real estate - and when my peers saw me character assassinated by her, and saw people believe her because despite the fact she is lesbian she is also CAUCASIAN, as a black woman I was A.N.G.R.I.E.R.T.H.A.N.H.E.L.L.
I could have let this anger consume me and gone online talking trash about gays and lesbians. It's not the first time women have come onto me; nor is it the first time, unfortunately, I have been dealt revenge for being straight and not sleeping with them. If I can put anger aside for that, you can put anger aside for this. That was MY 911, after decades of championing gay rights. I saw it as a very serious (and financially damaging - I'm still in debt because of it and lost my home; she and her partner live very comfortably in a 2500 square foot home in another state) betrayal.
So what.
I am still in favor of gays and lesbians and see you as my brothers. I choose to ignore being called a nigger by a white gay guy; yes, it's happened, twice. Both were drunk, and I hate the drunkness and ignorance, not the gayness. I choose to ignore the gay black guy who owes me close to $100,000 and still won't pay it, and uses my work to promote himself, where he's living very well with his white partner (they're not married yet, by choice) and their cute twins in his condo. I choose to ignore the biracial gay guy who emails me every three weeks or so telling me he's going to commit suicide because he hates life, and all my phone calls, visits and replies over the past FIFTEEN YEARS OF THIS talking him into staying alive, but this year when I asked him to write a single short letter for me to help me get rid of a stalker, he ignored it and ignored me; then sent me another email a few months later acting as though he didn't hurt me at all. I choose to ignore the gay guys who competed against me for a certain cute straight guy I was dating (and yes, he was and remained straight), and told him evil things about me that weren't true.
You see, there's a lot to ignore in this world, and no human being is flawless or can stroll blameless. Do you think all straights regardless of race frolic singing tra-la-la through a meadow of Edelweiss simply because I can go out and select some schmo, walk in a church full of hate, mumble some words, get mumbled to and then get a tax break and smiles from strangers who don't even know or like me? How do you think I as a black heterosexual woman feel watching gay people who did some pretty foul stuff to me for their own personal selfish reasons living FAR BETTER THAN I DO RIGHT NOW? I'll tell you how I feel.
Committed to protecting their God-given, unalienable right as human beings to marry the person they love. Goddammit.
I'm black and straight, and I never threw you under the bus.
What if I were like other folks on this board and started a thread about how gays and lesbians have thrown MY ass under the bus?
I won't.
I'm not unusual. If I can rise above and reach out to you, you can rise above and reach out to us. We've both got to. It's the only way to defeat our new terrorists.
And you know who they are.
Edited to add forgotten part of story about suicidal friend.
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