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It was about a 3 to 4 hour bus ride from home. As each group of about 20 of us or so emerged from the caverns where we had been all day, we were told. President Kennedy was shot in Dallas and was dead. This was about an hour after it happened. It was very unreal. Then we all had to ride home in shock and silence. Some tried to call home first, but the entire D.C. to Baltimore phone system was inexplicably "down". The kids didn't say much on the ride home, and the teachers even less - they spoke in very low whispers and I wondered why. Eventually I was told why to shut me up, after asking too many times. Everybody was afraid to say what they thought about it, because of who did it (I didn't follow up and ask who, until the next week). When anyone did say anything about it, no matter how innocuous, they were "shh-ed". The half-dozen adults looked and acted terrified, not just for what had happened but for what might yet happen, to themselves and us, possibly on the way home. They were personally afraid, all of them.
Then we watched several days of news about it on TV, nonstop, which had never aired like that before - right through the Thanksgiving holiday, which was surreal too. Everybody was off work and school, and watching it. Then when we thought nothing could possibly go beyond that, Oswald was shot on camera in a police station, and shock turned to something else geometrically bigger but with no word to describe it. Then came the funeral.
And the only thing that provided any break from it, coming several weeks after that, was the Beatles. Looking back, I think we needed them to appear just at that time, a little before Christmas that year. And that's why I think to this day, those of us who were "teenagers" at that time, are very attached to the music that was current then - any kind of it that was on the charts. I think it saved our sanity, in a mass-group way.
It was awfulness on a scale like nothing else since. Even 9/11, which comes close, occurred in an already post-terrorism world. The JFK murder was a tearing of reality as we knew it.
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