It just never FUCKING ends. My friend who took his own life

[madinmaryland]

a couple of weeks ago, is now haunting us with his estate documents. We don't even know what the fuck his will says.

I just want the bleeding to fucking stop. Every day or so, the scab is ripped off.

:mad:

[nadinbrzezinski]

1. hugs

[madinmaryland]

2. I have been seeing a therapist. Thanks.

It takes time, but is REALLY fucking frustrating.

:hi:

[nadinbrzezinski]

3. Good...

and yes it takes time.

[flvegan]

4. He's not haunting you.

Civil Procedure seems to be. I'm sorry, but man, please don't let your friend's memory bear this as well.

I wish you well. You've been through a lot of shit lately and I mean no disrespect by this.

[madinmaryland]

6. I guess his I should have said his memories that I have of him are haunting me.

The friend I had for twenty-five years was obliterated five years before he died. One pain killer led to another, and then one drug led to another.

It's the memories of us yanking out the engine of my 74 Monte Carlo pulling it apart and rebuilding it. A Chevy 454 big block. The car was too freaking heavy to allow the engine to display its true power. I gave it to him some years ago, as he was going to put it in a boat. I gotta figure out what he did with that thing!

[pinboy3niner]

8. Hang on to those good memories

I'm sincerely sorry you lost him--even before he passed.

I've lost WAY too many friends in my life, and at times that really tore me up. The suicides were especially tough.

You seem to have a good perspective, though this loss, so fresh in time and in your mind, will naturally be problematical. I have no doubt that you'll get through it--but that doesn't mean it won't be painful.

:hug:

[flvegan]

12. Keep those memories fresh.

Remember him often. Doing so over a big block, all the better.

Again, I'm sorry for your loss and the reasons leading to it.

[w8liftinglady]

5. I wish I could help you.Just know if you need to talk...pm me

[me b zola]

7. Condolences

Just know that you did nothing wrong. :grouphug:

[MilesColtrane]

9. MIM, of course the pain of losing someone close never goes away, but...

with time the pain can be diluted with the good memories.

I hope that that time comes soon for you. I hope that the sweet will outweigh the bitter in your bittersweet remembrance of your friend.

Just know that there are people you've never met, like me, that want the best for you.

[Forkboy]

10. Life is an endless scab being picked at.

I wish I had a better answer for you, but I don't. x(

[madinmaryland]

13. Yes it is. Thankfully it is not being video taped. Unfortunately it is being

recorded on DU!

:hi:

[Forkboy]

14. You just think it's not being taped.

:evilgrin:

[madinmaryland]

16. Fucking Belicheat! What the fuck happened to BossHog??

Maybe someone videotaped him with a Patriots shirt on.

:hide:

[Forkboy]

18. For the right price I can tell you.

It's no coincidence that his last act on DU was calling me his "little bitch". With the right tape technology you too can silence DUers!! Bwahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha!!!!!! :evilgrin:

[IMATB]

11. My nephew

killed himself two years ago today.

Within 15 mins. of his father leaving to get a haircut and calling all his friends, he was dead.

Nobody knows why and his mother refuses to discuss the note he left.

The hole in our heart will be there forever.

Peace to you.

[Coyote_Bandit]

15. .

:hug:

[kimi]

I'm so sorry

Dupe - edit

[kimi]

17. I'm so sorry

Don't know what else to say, but hugs. The bleeding, I believe, will eventually stop, but there will always be a scar.

We can learn to live with scars, it makes us who we are. I've got lots of them, we all do.

I'm so very sorry that you, your friends, and your family and his are going through this. Peace.

[madinmaryland]

19. Goodnight everyone. I'll be back tomorrow. Thank you for your kind words.

:hi:

[Geoff R. Casavant]

20. Scan the will and email it to me.

You're in a different state, so I can't represent you, but I'll be glad to look the will over and give you my two cents.