I'd rather read Mick Foley's autobiography than listen to Monica Goodling...

[Wetzelbill]

Why?

I am so effing sick of this administration. I don't need any further proof to know what kind of rats these guys are. So yeah, I'll probably read a few blogs and columns and so on later on. Maybe see what KO or Jon Stewart or somebody has to say about it. However for the most part, this stuff just makes me sick. It's been almost 30 years since we've been stuck with authoritarian Republicans pulling a bunch of crazy bullshit. It's not that I stay oblivious to it, but sometimes, I just can't even stand the sight of these people. Thinking back about the hell they have put our country through it makes my blood boil.

For several years, I read everything I could. Papers, books, blogs etc. I spent all my time keeping up on this stuff. I decided to become a columnist as well. I'd do massive amounts of research, had some stuff published on PNAC etc. But I was angry all the time. Truly pissed off.

It started effecting my health a little. I'm a pretty young guy, at the time I wasn't even thirty, but I felt like shit every day. My stomach would bother me. Literally, spending time looking into how effed up this administration is, is bad for you. I had a friend who would argue with me over politics, he'd bring up the same tired GOP talking points. No depth at all. He'd look at me like I was crazy when I'd say stuff like: " now that Republicans control all three branches of government, you might not want to even eat meat anymore." That's how pervasive these guys rottenness is. You don't even know if you are eating food that isn't going to kill you or make you sick. Talking to some average person who recites MSM points, it's like they don't even know what the hell is going on. Politics to most people consist of one idiot arguing on tv with another idiot arguing from the other side, and then they decide who they most want to sound like. I'm talking about permanent bases in Iraq, possible food contamination, the weakening of our ability to react to disasters etc, and people like my friend would be saying shit about the "death tax", "family values" and how he thought Saddam buried his WMD somewhere and that's why we haven't found them yet.

I got so bad I started predicting stuff. I'd be sitting around talking to my younger brother, who lived with me, and I'd say something like: "I think there will probably be a major terrorist attack in Europe sometime this year." (Madrid) Or "I wouldn't be surprised if Israel and Lebanon had another war." I wasn't even surprised at the Katrina mess at all. I pretty much knew something like that could happen. How the hell can a person get so jaded and have so little faith in leadership that they would almost expect the president of the U.S. to sit by while a major city was destroyed by a natural disaster? Not even that, because you can't stop a hurricane, but when I heard that Bush was more concerned about losing 5 pounds than protecting New Orleans, I barely shrugged. All of that stuff, the levees, Bush's aides having to force him to watch footage of the disaster because he was so out of touch. Didn't surprise me at all. I would have been more surprised if he actually did something.

It's all been so bad for so long that I don't expect anything less.

Finally this last six or seven months or so, I've had to take a step back and pursue my other interests. I no longer find it as important to say read the bulk of 6 papers a day plus everything else I can get my hands on. I stay informed on topics, but I can't be in Bush mode 24/7 like I once was. It's not worth it. I have my own creative interests and my own goals to pursue. I pick and choose my battles a little more carefully now as well. Keeping track of this stuff at such a high level was hurting me. I was completely miserable.

So now I find other things to do as well. To stay in balance. If I didn't this administration would have made me go nuts by now. They still almost do it. Sometimes I am still angry. Sometimes still bitter. But I can let it go an live my life a little better now too.

And I can't wait until our national nightmare is over and this administration is long gone. Everything will be a whole lot easier when that day comes. Sure there will be fights to fight, and the world will still be an imperfect place, but, I hope, at least, we can all move on and enjoy our lives a little more then.

[MessiahRp]

1. Actually I heard the first one is pretty good...

Even without the stupidity of Goodling, it might not be a bad read when you're looking to pick up something of interest.

Rp

[Wetzelbill]

2. it is good

I'm about halfway through. I am literally reading his autobiography instead of watching Monica. :)

[KoKo]

3. Much to think about in your post. Thanks!

Many of us are where you are...but not yet at the point where we can "let go." Yesterday's inactions by our Dem Leadership makes it clear that many of us will have health consequences if we don't back off from this for awhile. It's hard to find other things when the Criminality of these people has crept into everything our family has enjoyed as a "break." Food, entertainment, walks in parks with Clean Air, a job that one could feel fulfilled in, health and dental care and friends and relatives who aren't spouting Repug BS or Religious fantasy 24/7.

The Bushies have crept into every corner of our society. But, that just means we have to be more clever in finding ways to push them out.