Back in February, I
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=433x167301">apologized. It went like this:
Goddamn it. I was wrong. I apologize to my GLBT friends here at DU
...and everywhere else, for that matter.
All weekend I've been telling you to shut up. Well, not in so many words, but that was the gist of it.
I kept saying, no, no, the rumors are just that, wait until Gates opens his mouth. Great things will fly out of it. The spotlight is ON, people are WATCHING, this will be IT.
Goddamn it.
I'm sitting in 2010 looking at a television that tells me they need a FUCKING YEARLONG STUDY to coddle bigots with regard to DADT. Because in a year *what* exactly will change?
Oh, and no policy announcements, either. Lots of hemming and hawing. Oh, and Mullen tweeted something.
Goddamn it.
I'm sorry. It's not fucking fair, and it's not right.
Today, with the repeal of DADT signed, I want to apologize again.
I'm sorry I stopped helping and gave up on seeing this happen in this presidency. My meager energies went elsewhere, because frankly it looked like there was no goddamn reason to expect this before 2012, or probably even later. It looked dark, and I didn't want to deal. So I threw up my hands and focused elsewhere.
You didn't.
And of course you didn't. Because, unlike me, you couldn't.
I'm glad you had stalwart allies in bringing this to pass -- I'm glad you had people like Choi, Reid, Pelosi, and frankly even Obama, because I didn't do a damn thing to help this. To help you.
I'm ashamed I didn't knock on a single door for this. Didn't make a single phone call, didn't write one letter since February. I wasn't on any line, or any wall, or any streetcorner.
I should've been. I'm sorry.
Glad you didn't need me for this fight. There's more to come, of course. This is big, but there's more to come. For the next fight, I'm making a promise, instead of an apology. You won't have to wonder where I am again.