Current events and PTSD.
I have a clinical diagnosis of PTSD.
The orange monster would trigger me the minute I saw him or heard his disgusting voice. He made the four years he was squatting in the Whitehouse
intolerable to me.
He reminded me of every abuser I have dealt with in my life.
Every damn time I saw him or heard him.It was a huge trigger.
Those four years of the orange pusbag had me having more symptoms everyday.
Being politically aware during that time was a nightmare.
But I had to watch because my survival was being threatened as they toyed with hud,considered destroying snap,SSI or destroy medicare/ medicaid.
But even now with Biden thankfully as president I feel a constant anxiety regardless.
I wonder what can we do to stop the fascists?
How to restore voting rights and stop the thieves changing the laws?
How to stop the quanon,the Tucker Carlson's,the Oan,the Newsmax and Fox?
How to get around or end the filibuster?
When those dinos are claiming to be there for us, to be in line with us act on thier fantasies and preferences over what is really happening before our eyes?
Reminds me of Everytime I reached out for help growing up ,and was blown off
and the abuse ,minimized or denied. Like I was making it all up.
How are we going to get the conservadems to wake up and realize democracy is dying because of them and thier stupid beliefs and preferences that they have have no basis in reality?
The bullshit by the conservadems triggers me like the good christian who to other people looked like such a good man,while behind closed doors he wounded me.
What about the magat crazies and militias,the racists,bad cops, and gun nuts itching for civil war. The insurrection .what are we going to do about them?
How many times will we get punched in the face before we
call the abusers abusive?
What about the wingnut stacked courts?
How long until the social safety net is gone?
How will I survive if republicans destroy it all?
I won't survive it.
Being transgender and watching these assholes and evilgelicals chip away at my human rights and the ability to be who I am without danger,triggers me.
What happens in politics affects me personally like everyone else.
I am scared that this right wing cancer won't be cut out of politics in time,and it's hate media reigned in and condemned ,as it destroys the social contract that makes living in a civilization possible. As the propaganda makes more rage addicted followers out of people's family members?
How long will it be until the abusers with thier inhumanity,greed
,Cruelty and control games and fuck people over are stopped ?
Will it go on until I don't recognize the country I grew up in anymore?
The right wing control games,gaslighting and bullying reminds me of every abusive situation I have lived through.
The abuse dynamics throwing this country into turmoil are so obvious.
Yet it seems no politician wants
to see it as abuse being writ large across America.
But there it is
We need to see these problems and problem people as the abusive sociopaths they are.
And that hesitancy to see it and call it what it is triggers me too.
The right wing abuses and destroys everything and everyone.
They count on having no consequences for thier behavior ,beliefs and abuse,especially if they are rich.
That abuse the right wing does is why I call the GQP the psychopath party.
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Doing better today
No harm no foul
I feel exactly the same way about everything. I wish someone would write a book about it just to acknowlege what we have all been through and the toll it is taking on us.
It's real and it's palpable. There are so many times when I feel the way I used to in my early 20's when I was first struggling with my anxiety and depression and trying to work through the trauma of my childhood. Through years of therapy and working on the right medications, I was able to get to a good place.
But these past 5 - 6 years is like going through it all over again - you are right about it triggering the abuse and the gaslighting about the abuse - and it has done a lot of damage to those of us who struggle with this.
The feelings are as real as they ever were, but without a formal, professional acknowlegement of the mental and psychological damage these people have done to us, it's hard for us to believe that there is a legitimate reason for feeling the way we do, and it can be so confusing and even more crazy-making.
Hang in there and keep sharing. Pain shared is halved and knowing that others know what you are going through helps.
