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Thu Jun 26, 2014 at 01:10 PM PDT
His father's eyes
by SteelerGrrl
He was a rising senior and standout scholar-athlete at his high school. I was the cardiac sonographer on weekend call at the regional trauma center. Answering a mid-afternoon page, I was promptly connected to ICU. "GSW," the charge nurse said flatly. "Harvest."
"I'll be right there."
GSW. Gun shot wound. Someone has been declared clinically brain dead, and the next of kin has consented to donate his or her heart. Organ donation is a tightly choreographed process and every minute counts. My job was to do an ultrasound study of the donor's heart and deliver it stat to my cardiologist, who would assess its viability for transplant.
Guiding my unwieldy machine out of the elevator and into the normally-sterile corridor, I found it teeming with humanity. Mostly teenagers, they were huddled in small groups. Shaking, sobbing, praying.
This was going to be bad.
His cramped room is already packed with family and life support machinery. I introduce myself, scanning their faces. They part silently as I set up my equipment. I know instantly which is his father. I will never forget the look in his father's eyes.
He doesn't look dead. His chest rises and falls with the ventilator; the monitor displays normal vital signs. As I lay my probe on his chest, his skin is warm beneath my glove. His heart springs to life for all to see. Strong. Steady. So much living left to do.
I complete my study methodically, efficiently, as X-ray and lab line up for their turn. His heart function is within normal limits, but I can't tell the family that. Instead, I nod awkwardly and them them I'm so sorry. Mindful of the vigil in the hall, I pause at the door to dab away the rising well in my eyes with a washcloth. It turns out the washcloth is covered with ultrasound gel.
The cold and indignity shock me back into clinical mode. Page the cardiologist. Drive home. The brilliant sun suddenly seems cruel, illuminating a world that doesn't feel beautiful anymore. It feels broken, bleeding about the jagged edges of a piece senselessly and irrevocably ripped from its very flesh.
There was a gun in his home, and there was an accident. It doesn't matter where, or when, or how it happened. In a more perfect world, stories like his would be rare. Instead, he succumbed to the second most common cause of death among children and young people. From the New England Journal of Medicine: (word cloud above)
Emphasis mine. Seven gun-related deaths per day, age 1 to 19. Seven bedside vigils, seven devastated families, seven fathers and mothers with a look in their eyes that stays with you forever. My nursing textbooks tell me to work with measurable quantities. How do you measure heartbreak? How do you quantify the carnage of a single bullet, when its wake is measured in decades and generations?
A year after that unforgettable call, I received a card at work. It was signed by the recipient of that young man's heart. He was doing wonderfully, back at work, and able to play with his kids again.
Only then, far removed from the clinical detachment of the moment, did I comprehend the great gift that young man's family had bestowed in a moment of unspeakable tragedy. Only then did I let myself cry.
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2014/06/26/1309774/-His-father-s-eyes
FourScore
(9,704 posts)I thought it so poignant and written so beautifully.
UtahLib
(3,179 posts)No matter the circumstances, losing a child is indescribably painful. The loss of a child to such a senseless tragedy just compounds the pain with haunting thoughts of *if only*.
meti57b
(3,584 posts)There is a terrible tragedy that results in a true blessing.
You can not say "that's great", and you can not say "that's awful".
WinkyDink
(51,311 posts)Rosemary Woodhouse: What have you done to him? What have you done to his eyes, you maniacs!
Roman Castevet: He has his father's eyes.
Rosemary Woodhouse: What do you mean? Guy's eyes are normal!
FourScore
(9,704 posts)Not sure everyone is gonna make that leap to Rosemary's Baby. Interesting though.
WinkyDink
(51,311 posts)helped.
At least it would have saved me ten seconds of Google time, haha!
FourScore
(9,704 posts)BTW, me too.
calimary
(81,421 posts)there would be a deeper and different context. It DID make me want to read further.
And get my heart broken yet again.
By all these DAMN gun stories and the sadness and devastation they include.
And it allows me to kick this worthy thread.
DAMN GUNS. DAMN THEM TO HELL.
MisterP
(23,730 posts)marble falls
(57,145 posts)Nothing wrong with the title.
ctsnowman
(1,903 posts)LoisB
(7,222 posts)become inured to them.
toby jo
(1,269 posts)Every day, just unthinkable. Our country. Nice job, eh? Christ, we're not at war, this is us at peace. What a horrible place. We must be the most violent culture that's ever been.
greatlaurel
(2,004 posts)These statistics should be listed every night on the nightly news, just like the body counts during the Vietnam War. People would wake up in a hurry.
I do not think we are the most violent, but we are the most propagandized by corporations, so people are anesthetized to the dangers of guns.
emsimon33
(3,128 posts)The war of profits over people, in this case, profits of the gun and ammo manufacturers over people's lives.
Kick.
greatlaurel
(2,004 posts)Everyone should read this post. Thank you. All that death and tragedy just so the gun manufacturers, marketers and their stockholders can make a profit.
Diclotican
(5,095 posts)greatlaurel
If any other nation in the Western World have had 7 death per day age 1-24 year out - year in it would have been a country in war - or in a slow burning revolution.. And it is just some of the total 11.000 people who is getting killed in the US every year... By guns
But in the US, it is just how business is. Weird - and scary if you ask me..
Diclotican
Uncle Joe
(58,389 posts)Thanks for the thread, FourScore.
DesertDiamond
(1,616 posts)share it on FB if there's a link. I've been sharing this stuff every day. My gun-loving friends will wake up sometime. I know they have hearts -- all we have to do is talk to them more than the RW talk radio hatemongers do.
dballance
(5,756 posts)The whole story at the link is just as heart-wrenching.
That fact that someone was able survive due to the terrible tragedy and a transplant provides a bit of solace. That is the reason I've signed my license to say I'm a willing organ donor.
stage left
(2,965 posts)a candle for all gun related tragedies.
flamin lib
(14,559 posts)Joe the Plumber says these deaths don't outweigh his 2nd amendment rights.
If there had just been a good guy with a gun . . .
calimary
(81,421 posts)It always sends me to the same thought...
"President Obama doesn't want to come and take yer damn fucking guns. I do!"
Spoken as a mom. When the kiddies couldn't or wouldn't play nice with their toys, those toys got TAKEN AWAY.
Fla Dem
(23,723 posts)Last edited Fri Jun 27, 2014, 07:36 PM - Edit history (1)
outcry for the hunting down and elimination of the perpetrators. Well the perpetrators are the NRA, the politicians who are in their pockets and the American citizens who support them.
and we know who they are because they are always in our faces with their "guns everywhere" arrogance.
Ilsa
(61,696 posts)YarnAddict
(1,850 posts)I have to say, what a wonderful, selfless gift this young man's family gave to a stranger. Their son will live on in everything the recipient does--every accomplishment, every moment of love and joy. I hope that will bring some comfort to the parents out of this horrible, senseless tragedy.
valerief
(53,235 posts)as many as infections."
This doesn't surprise me about guns. They're fuckin' dangerous, and only lunatics don't want severe regulations. However, I'm surprised at the large number of cancer deaths vs. heart disease deaths. Shows how toxic our world is.