Kinda scared shitless
and on the other hand wonder if I'm just trolling for sympathy, but I have to start this new regimen tomorrow. I don't want to.I can't. I 'm thinking that once I get into it I'll just go for the flow but it's what? My fourth time on chemo? Fifth? I'm tired of this shit, but no one knows what to say except people in exact situations and at best they can commiserate. Options are running out.
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You can "troll" (you're not!) here all you want and find many sympathetic friends. 
Whatever you need, we're here.
Good vibes headed your way. Best wishes and 's to you. Good luck!
and that the chemo takes and you are whole and healthy again. You must be exhausted from all you've been through, but you're still here and that means a lot to us.
I've written before on here that I've decide to forego chemo. My beautiful, inside and out, SIL just went through 6 months of chemo and passed last week. I miss her beyond words. I'm glad I've finally made my decision - it's a huge weight off my shoulders.
Tab, do what YOU think is best, no one else.
In fact, that's what any of us can do. No, the fear doesn't pass as it's the fear of the unknown which is why we have religion. Well, I don't have "religion" but it seems most do. Whatever gets you through the night.
I think I'd be apprehensive as well.
Sending good vibes, Tab, and a big DU hug.
& Rec !!!
I will have you in my thoughts.
Please try to get support from DU and your family and friends around you. I'm sure you do.
Also, hang in there one day at a time. Just one day more, then one day more. Hopefully this session will be your last.
and you get it, as well as good vibes! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Positive thoughts are your friend. I recently read a book written by Alice Hoffman called "Survival Lessons", about her battle with breast cancer. It is wonderfully inspirational and uplifting, regardless of your condition or gender. I have never faced cancer, but found her book to be full of encouragement and hope. Seek out any book, poem or prayer that speaks to you and let it guide you during the challenges ahead. You aren't alone.
Best wishes for a swift and full recovery. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Feel free to troll for sympathy and support. I would be scared too.
it sucks.
Sending good thoughts and healing vibes.
with DU all these years. There are many caring, compassionate people here. I hope the thoughts expressed here in addition to the support you receive from your own family and friends helps to give you the strength you need in the days ahead.
and wish I had some other words of wisdom. As you mentioned in the cancer forum you have beaten the odds before and I hope this time you will as well, also wish that these next drugs will not be too hard on you. I'm glad that you reached out in the GD forum, there are many good people on DU and you will be surrounded by hugs and positive thoughts.
How long does this next session of chemo last and when do they do another test of this marker?
Big hugs!!!
and wish you all the strength you need.
I don't know what to say either except good luck. I hope everything goes well for you!
Glad you're here. Let's all crowd together and make sure our shoulders are all touching, so our friend Tab has a nice broad support on which to stretch out. Maybe if we crank up some music, we can make him think he's crowd surfing!
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Seems to me you deserve it. That's yet another thing I love about DU - people here do share personal strife, issues, complications, dreads, losses, fears, cheers, expectations, and celebrations. People share so much of their personal lives and inner struggles. Our own Skittles is the one who once said "someone's always here." You need not struggle through this alone! Man, I still think about the time I posted the night my mom died. It was late. Everybody else at the house was asleep. I was up, couldn't shut my brain off. And sure enough, somebody replied. Then three more. Then a dozen more. Then the deluge! DU helped me get through that. DU has helped all of us get through bush/cheney. And it'll help you get through this, too.
And truly - if you're up late, in difficulty and discomfort from the chemo, post about it here. Someone's always awake. Don't hesitate to reach out. We'll walk through this with you as much as we can. Some here have even been through this same kind of thing, either themselves or aiding and comforting loved ones in treatment. You will get sympathy AND empathy here. As much as you need, and then some.
you already are a survivor. Don't forget that. And stay in touch....we care to know how you are doing and wish only the best for you.
It isn't trolling your fifth time on chemo.
Posts like yours make me appreciate every day. Thank you. I hope after this time you will be cancer free. Best wishes and a speedy recovery. 
I posted in the cancer group and have decided to forego chemo. Now I just have to get up the nerve to tell my oncologist.
My very best wishes to you!!
I just have to say: FUCK CANCER!!! Goddamn, it has just had a reign of terror through so many lives, including the lives of so many of my friends and family.
Cancer, this is for you: 
And this is for you, Tab:
and you have a lot of sympathy from this corner of the world, along with many beautiful responses from people that care.
I wish you wellness and hope matters turn around briskly.
Life is so unfair sometimes.
I can't even imagine what you are going through.
We miss you in C & B. I know that food is probably the last thing on your mind, but come by some time and say hi.
Tab 
Outcome for you. I don't know else what to say. I haven't been in your shoes. All I know from my other experiences is that life seems to require a lot of courage, and that sucks.
Hang in there. If healing vibes could help, I'd be sending them to you right now...
Get the next round of chemo.
When you feel well enough, tell us how it went. We will be here to listen.
((((((((((((((((((((Forwarding healing vibes.))))))))))))))))
can win this.
All of my very best to you.
Just know that even if we DUers can't agree on much, we all agree that healing vibes are coming your way. Hang in there - we're rooting for you!
if you can. Reduce or eliminate stressful activities and situations if possible. It may seem like "woo" but stress and toxic people can keep us sick. 
Best wishes.
it's important to eliminate stress as much as possible when recovering from anything. Cancer and chemo are no different. It's not woo. It's physiological.
Think positive Tab. People are sending it to you.
find your center, and hang on tight, i guess. never worn your shoes, but swimming in a shit storm of my own. chain smoking and walking in circles a lot.
but that is what makes this place a community. we are all in this together.
we are here for you.
to trust your medical team in what they are doing? If you trust them, do it.
In any case, please accept my hugs and sympathy for the very hard road you are on. You will always be able to find friends and people to hold your hand here.
Hang in there and keep fighting. We're with you.
I know that I'm luckier than any damn fool (recovering) drunk should EVER expect to be.
Please accept my best wishes for a speedy, full and PERMANENT recovery for you. Usually when people say "I know how you feel", they're full of shit. Having gone through the experience of having a doctor look at me, say " CANCER", and understand that she meant ME, I know just how scary and depressing that is.
PM me if you need a shoulder.
Again, my thoughts and wishes are with you. All the best to you.
PEACE! 
I hope this is the last time. Take care of yourself.
Hang in there, I know it's very tough.
thinking of you and sending you strength and positive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best, and unload on us anytime. Many of us know EXACTLY what you're talking about.
And I have wondered about chemo? How do we know when it is enough? Does your body say I should endure the full treatment or should I stop when my body tells me to stop? Do you think of that?
Again, you are very brave. Sometimes, I think we have to accept that some things are out of our hands. I don't know if it is religion or God or whatever, but we need to put our faith somewhere else so we can continue to live life to the fullest extent possible. We accept by faith that someone else is guiding the ship.