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Every day I watch another youtube video of narcissism, recovering from a narcissistic parent, the family of a narcissist . . . you get idea.
My jaw is on the floor most of the time as my childhood and a good portion of my adult life are being accurately described.
I've gone to therapy but we didn't discuss this topic. I knew it wasn't me, not because of denial, but because the treatment I received was not warranted.
I sensed I couldn't rely on my parents at a young age. As soon as I was given a nickel or more when I was five, I'd buy a candybar (yeah, those WERE the days . . . . ) and squirrel it (literally) away in a wooden box in the back of my closet in case food was ever used as a leverage by either or both parents. And worse, they used my siblings to persecute me.
I'm writing to tell you that I'm healing. It doesn't erase the past, but I feel so much better having my life explained to me. And one vid advised that narcissism is the hardest complex to live with. I tell myself that makes me a stronger survivor than I thought I was.
And I understand that I had the misfortune to be born into a very bad situation but it's permanently finished.
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I grew up with a narcissistic mother and was the designated Black Sheep, whom she considered competition.
