Said "Goodbye" to my beloved dog today
Hi All,
I was just reading through some of the posts and saw Stinky's post about bone cancer. 
I just went through the same thing with my dog of 14 years. She already had some joint related issues in her hindquarters, so when the only treatment for the tumor in her front leg was to amputate, well... I could see the writing on the wall. In our case, it only took about a month before she could hardly walk at all, and we just didn't want to cross the threshold to where she was begging for mercy. Today, I am so, so sad and devastated. Talking about it helps, even on a forum.
Here is a small blurb I posted to friends and family, along with a link to a video I made:
And, just like that, she is gone...
I4 years ago, we walked into the SPCA and adopted a small black puppy. The name on her cage card was "Hi". Of course, we changed her name, but I am marveling at the irony today - how I am so much better at "Hi" than "Goodbye".
I've known for several days now that she would be leaving us today. And, I've been torturing myself with the "lasts", just as I will be agonizing over the "firsts" in the next few weeks and months. You know, "this is the last time I will ______ while she is still alive". Driving home from work, listening to that song, watching the sun come up, eating a meal... Now it will be "this is the first time I have _______ since she's been gone". I think I do this to myself because losing her is such a significant event in my life, that it really does divide it between before and after she was gone. This dog loved me unconditionally, better than most (if not all) people I have known.
I know everyone thinks they have the best dog. But, Sierra really was THE best dog. I can't tell you how many people have told me over the years that they wish they could have a dog just like Sierra.
There is a deep hole in my heart today, and our house is full of sadness and despair. I'm not that good at making videos, but those of you who've known me for a long time understand that making these little tributes has helped me express my grief. Thank you for watching...
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Rest in peace.
Thank you for the video -- beautiful. You and Sierra shared wonderful years and lots of laughter and love.
in love with each other. I miss him so much.
I am looking at the greyed muzzle of my baby girl Jasmine (who is 13) and this video reminded me of all the wonderful little moments that leave big memories in our hearts.
A beautiful tribute to a beautiful friend - you and Sierra were so lucky to have each other.
tribute to Sierra.
It's been a year and a half since my own black 'best dog' crossed the bridge and it still hurts, so I know what you're going through.
We had to put our 13yo girl down 7 yrs. ago, so I know how you're feeling. I'm crying along with you.
Beautiful dog. My Coco has good days and bad days - not sure how old she is, but I rescued her in 2003. I don't want to jump the gun, but I also don't want her to suffer.
It's hard, I know.
Losing our fur babies is the worst.
Hang in there.
