(BTW- this really deserves to be it's own OP)
My son and I read it together, and have been discussing it for 30 minutes.
I really understand things in a new way, and it has given me a lot things to think about ( and some ideas for PTSD treatment)
The way you can express yourself, I think you have come a long way in your treatment, to the point you should be treating others.
You have a gift, seriously, and I think you could be answering the phones at the suicide hot line. I know you are not yet healed, but as a wise person once said, we are 'stronger in the broken places'. Perhaps you can finish healing by telling your story and helping other veterans understand what they are feeling.
I dream of a day when we treat our veterans with the respect they deserve, only using our troops for the defense of this country, then supporting them back home where they can live for FREE, in a community of veterans, as least until they have healed, perhaps providing jobs which improve everyone's lives, putting up solar panels, helping children...which will heal their tortured souls and help them feel good about themselves and the world again.
This is really sad, but I remember reading before the war in Iraq, that Saddam Hussein had such a place for his veterans. He gave them free housing in a community of other veterans, with free health care and visiting nurses.
As for PTSD treatment, I was reading yesterday about psychologists using video games to treat phobias,like for instance spiders... helping people face them, conquer them, move on.
Is there anything like this being used to treat PTSD? I don't know exactly what that would look like, but a video game that helps with the transition back into society. Perhaps you are in a war zone, when peace is declared. You suddenly start shaking hands with the 'enemy', start helping families who have been harmed, 'shooting' bananas at them (we miss you Bill Hicks!!!)...back in America, you can 'civilization' style build as many public parks, solar panels, windmills, amusement parks as you want. Gunfire is heard frequently, what sounds like gunfire, turns into a beautiful fireworks show....maybe this sounds crazy, but it just might work. Visualization and repetition are very powerful things.