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The shocking truth about religious ‘gay cure’ therapy by someone who failed to turn straight [View all]
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Last month, a state funded Jewish school in North London, JFS, was accused by the Jewish Chronicle of showing students the logo and central message of JONAH, a so called gay cure group and implicitly portrayed it as something they should explore if they thought they might be gay. The chief rabbi of Amsterdam was suspended from his position after he signed a document alleging homosexuality could be modified and healed. And Lord Carey, the former Archbishop of Canterbury, backed a Christian gay cure therapist struck off by her professional body. But very little has been written about what actually happens at so called reparative therapy. Chaim Levin enrolled on a Jewish scheme to try to turn himself straight. This is his story.
I grew up in a traditional Jewish family in Crown Heights. I love my mother, my father and my family. I had always felt different and was the subject of relentless bullying by other boys for seeming gay. When I was 17 I confided to a friend that I was attracted to men and not sexually attracted to women at all. When it came out, I was thrown out of yeshiva (Jewish religious school). For the longest time I felt so alone because I truly believed that I was the only person battling this secret war. My older siblings were getting married and having kids, and all I ever wanted was to be a part of the beautiful world my parents had raised me in. My dream was to marry a woman and live the life my family hoped and dreamed for me. I would never have chosen to be gay; I could not imagine anyone growing up in the Orthodox world who would choose to be someone who doesnt fit into the values and norms of everyone around them.
So do I think that I was born gay? I dont know and I am not sure how important that is. What is important is that it certainly is not something that I chose or had anything to do with. And I felt immense pressure to somehow change who I was.
After much time and research I found a well-known organisation that specialised in reparative therapy. This organisation had endorsements from a wide range of rabbis and I was sure that it was the answer to all my problems. The organisations executive director told me that he believes everyone can change if they simply put in the hard work. I would have done anything to change, and this message was just the hope I was looking for. I spent two years attending every group meeting, weekend, and individual life coaching sessions they offered. My parents and I paid thousands of dollars. Every day, every session, I was working and waiting to feel a shift in my desires or experience authentic change. That moment never came. I didnt change, I never developed any sexual desire for women, and never stopped being attracted to men. Instead, I only felt more and more helpless because I wasnt changing. The organisation and its staff taught us that change only comes to those who truly want it and are willing to put in the work. So if I wasnt changing, I was seen as someone who either really didnt sincerely want it, or would not put in the necessary work. In other words, there was no one to blame but myself.
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The shocking truth about religious ‘gay cure’ therapy by someone who failed to turn straight [View all]
xchrom
Feb 2012
OP
You may, that doesn't mean you should. Prejudice is prejudice, no matter who you are aiming at.
Kurmudgeon
Feb 2012
#6
If someone calls themselves LaLionessPriyanka and says/does things you wouldn't, I should judge you?
Kurmudgeon
Feb 2012
#27
some Christian groups really try to live up to Christ's teachings and not judge people
dickthegrouch
Feb 2012
#14
If you paint them all the same, it just makes it easier for the wrong to hide.
Kurmudgeon
Feb 2012
#29
when you understand why it is that you dismiss all the other possible gods, except the one(s) you
stockholmer
Feb 2012
#26
This 'theapy' is common to Christian sects as well, the President and his wife and other
Bluenorthwest
Feb 2012
#15