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BlueKota

(1,898 posts)
Fri Oct 13, 2023, 08:14 PM Oct 2023

I have to admit I always kind of brushed off the whole idea [View all]

of Armageddon, and the end of days, but now I am genuinely frightened that this is what is happening. Trump and the way his followers are putting him above the words of Christ, his followers taking control of the House, the situation in the middle east, climate change, Russia and China cooperating with each other.

I am praying trying to calm myself and I even had a near death experience years ago where I had the strongest sense of being enveloped in peace, and love, with the words I'm going home, echoing in my brain. But then I heard my Mom begging me not to leave her, and I was revived seconds later. She died the following year. Part of me is saying I shouldn't be scared and I should trust, but I am afraid.

Afraid that what if I did something in these intervening years that changed God's mind about me. I mean I hate Trump and his buddies with a passion and keep wishing bad things will happen to them, and I know as a Christian I am not supposed to think like that, but I just get so angry at how awful they are. Or what if my unconscious mind was just dreaming. I don't want everything to just end.

I don't know why I am sharing this. It's just I really don't have that many outlets to talk about it. I have heard other people say they think the end is coming and just enjoy what life is left, but the fear gets in the way. Then there are others who say, I am letting my anxiety make mountains out of molehills, and maybe I am.

I just wonder if anyone else has been struggling, and if so how you combat it? I was in therapy, but the place where I was going said I didn't need it, any more, and right now I am trying to find a new therapist because I disagree, but not many are taking new clients.

Oh by the way I am a lapsed Catholic. I still believe I'm God, Jesus, and the Saints, I just don't believe in the Church anymore.


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I know how you feel, BlueKota. arkielib Oct 2023 #1
It's hard to walk away from something that was a part of your life BlueKota Oct 2023 #2
Same with the Baptists and other evangelicals. They have lost all credibility. arkielib Oct 2023 #3
In some ways, that kind of teaching in Catholicism wnylib Oct 2023 #15
I always had the feeling that what they taught in the school BlueKota Oct 2023 #16
Early childhood teachings are hard to break away from. wnylib Oct 2023 #17
Joseph Campbell with whom Bill Moyers held a series of discussions on The Power of Myth, summer_in_TX Nov 2023 #23
An Orthodox ☦️ priest reminded me a long time ago that after we are afforded the sprinkleeninow Oct 2023 #4
Thank you! BlueKota Oct 2023 #20
Well, in the Lutheran church that I grew up in, wnylib Oct 2023 #5
Thank you so much. BlueKota Oct 2023 #12
Have you read Armageddon by Bart Ehrman? tanyev Oct 2023 #6
This sounds fascinating. ShazzieB Oct 2023 #7
He's written quite a few books in a similar vein. tanyev Oct 2023 #8
I recommend looking up Bart Ehrman on You Tube. There are wnylib Oct 2023 #11
Bart Ehrman does a great job of explaining Revelation. wnylib Oct 2023 #9
I have not read it yet BlueKota Oct 2023 #13
It's true that mankind's ability to destroy has far outpaced the ability tanyev Oct 2023 #19
Many years ago -- more years than I care to admit -- I read a theory that Revelations was actually shrike3 Oct 2023 #18
Does God change His mind? WDLAL Oct 2023 #10
Thank you! BlueKota Oct 2023 #14
Some very different thoughts on Armageddon: progressive, sensible, Biblical, anti-war hvn_nbr_2 Nov 2023 #21
Fascinating - and different from any interpretation I've heard before. summer_in_TX Nov 2023 #22
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