Reply #16: I buy myself a stuffed animal [View All]

[Why Syzygy]

every once in awhile too. I have a teddy from the c-mas of '97, I bought myself after a painful breakup. I named him Howard, as in "Howard be Thy name" (HP-I was in a 12-step program then). And this past spring, I bought a fluffy aqua bunny. I was away from my hometown and lonely. I also still have a velveteen rabbit I bought over a decade ago. It used to be the symbol of love I gave my ex when we were going to apart for awhile, for his work. And my most recent bf gave me a neat little velvet flower and a kermit. Aren't they fun?

If I go around or talk to my mother, I still get paybacks, from when I have no idea. I don't talk to her. I dreamed about my dad this morning. He left in 1998. I dreamed that he had just died, and therefore had survived with cancer for 10 years. In the dream one of my sisters and I had not been told of his death. We heard it from a distant cousin. In the dream, my sister said she was not going to hang out with my mom any more either. I believe dream characters may come close to the real person, but are actually pieces of our own psyches.

I also do nature as much as possible. I've gotten very picky about choosing friends, and am back in my new hometown, so that one will take awhile. But it will be worth it. Thanks.