Tobin S.
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Mon Nov-02-09 10:54 PM
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Sometimes I wish I could still get high |
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This is probably not going to be politically correct but it will be reality. And that's what we are interested in here in the mental health forum. Right?
I got high for the first time when I was 15 and the last time when I was 23. I'm 37 now. I never really used drugs habitually and the heaviest drug I used was LSD. Most of the time I just smoked marijuana when I got high.
The thing that got me to quit using drugs was not my illness. I became a trucker when I was 24 and that is a profession that is really strict about drug use. You have to pass a pre-employment drug test to get a job in trucking. You also have to submit to random drug testing while you are employed as a trucker. Trucking companies are required by federal law to drug test 50% of their drivers every year. And if you are in an accident while driving a truck and a vehicle is towed away and/or a person is taken away from the scene in an ambulance, you have to submit to a drug test whether the accident was your fault or not.
Truckers are held to a higher standard than the rest of the motoring public and most people would probably say rightly so. It would probably not be a good idea for me to get high now days regardless, what with the head meds and all. I'd still like to try it again, though.
I was driving around tonight running some errands. I was going through an old neighborhood where I used to hang out and party, and Led Zepplin came on the radio- one of my favorite groups to listen to when I was partying. And that combination took me back to those days and nostalgia washed over me.
There was a time in my life when I wanted more responsibility. Today I feel like someone else can have it.
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EFerrari
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Tue Nov-03-09 02:10 AM
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1. Been there, Had the hangover. |
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Edited on Tue Nov-03-09 02:11 AM by EFerrari
I was never constrained by anyone else from any kind of using but there have been times when I timed myself out. And whenever I gave in to whatever it was that I thought I was being "deprived of" by me, it turned out not to be as good as I remembered it. I was wanting some other, idealized, not in real life thingy.
Not very sexy but there it is.
:)
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Tue Nov-03-09 08:46 AM
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2. good luck with this passage |
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i am sure you will be fine. just in a rusty, crusty spot. thanks for being a safe trucker.
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qb
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Wed Nov-04-09 09:01 AM
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3. I get that nostalgic feeling when someone in my recovery group talks about drinking themselves into |
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oblivion. Seeing people drink socially doesn't affect me. I never drank socially. It's the drinking alone until I'm wasted that I miss.
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