I just learned that my homeless little brother died... two years ago... of covid.

[Oopsie Daisy]

111. The OUTPOURING of kindness of EVERYONE HERE has been very helpful and HEARTWARMING, and *

I guess this message thread will serve as his "funeral" or memorial and a chance for me to face the reality of it. Perhaps in some ways we were more fortunate than others. John was never violent, he just wasn't motivated.

He knew things could be better but never made an effort. He didn't lack for money except that he gave it away rather than use it for his own benefit. Although he lacked the ability (desire?) to wisely manage his income, or to know how to pay rent/utilities on time, he was "too smart" for any of us to force him into a state-managed guardianship or conservatorship. He was MORE frustrated with our attempts to help him to be better than he was with his life.

Our attempts made him less happy and it seemed to hurt his feelings, so we gave up and just let John-be-John. Considering the violence you experienced, you made the correct (and difficult) decision to let go. Sometimes our reluctant acceptance of reality is the best we can do.

Sending strength and courage to you, MuseRider.