Joe Paterno, 85, dies in State College

[Vanje]

59. Really

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...."a set of standards that THEY invented out of whole cloth."
As opposed to a set of standards that fucking children is bad. Crazy shit! I guess I made that up. Maybe fucking children is okay, for some people. Apparently JoePa must have thought so.
He knew.
He could have stopped it.
But he did not stop it.

This "judgmental pismire" has a stake.
You probably would'nt like to know this, but I was fucked regularly, by a male authority figure, from the time I was 6, until I was 9 or 10 , old enough to physically fight back.
I tried to tell. Because the fucker was a big name in the community, it was more convenient to ignore a dumb little kid's claims. Who you gonna believe: An eagle Scout from a prominant family or an ugly graceless little girl? No fucking contest.
I was was ignored.

Is there a long term effect? Were damages incurred?
I dont know.
Its fifty years later. I dont have sex. with anyone. I've tried, but it does,nt really work for me.
Is this because I was abused? or because I'm incapable of giving and recieving physical affectioni by my own ugly nature?
Maybe its just the physical scar tissue, and not my fault at all.(Yea, penetrating a 6 year old cases physical problems, as well as the head shit.)
I will never know.

I WILL NEVER KNOW.

I blame the guy that did this the child that was me.
But I much more blame the people who knew, but ignored it because knowing was inconveinient for their social status.

I do judge Joe Paterno. I judge him harshly.

That is how I "prance through my (barren) life, self-assured of my own wonderfulness."

How very nice for you, Sinistrous , that you don't have to know this shit.

Carry on. But I would ask that you protect your children , and the children you know,better than JoPa did , and better than my people did for me.